Just for Once

I aint perfect
Then neither is my family
I've been pretending to be happy so long
I alost forgot how it felt
That soaking feeling when everything drags you down
The way people around you expect things
What about me?
Aint I allowed to expect?

While people shuffels in and out of my life
I still play on repeat
Deep down inside
If I only could open up for someone..
If I asked you to do one thing for me
Just this time
Just once..
Would you?

I'll keep flying in sirckles
Around my own edge of hopelessness
If only for a while
I could close my eyes and be happy
For real this time..
I'm a hell good pretender
So don't let me down...
Please