Have you ever

Have you ever felt like ruining everything? Like every step you take turn out wrong, like you have no one to talk to, and no one to trust properly, because you don't feel like they understand? Have you ever felt like ending up alone no matter what yu do? Have you ever trusted someone alse than yourself?

Have you ever regrethed a choise you made? Have you hurted all the people you love? And in the end, have you felt like no one cares about you, even though you know they do? Like someone or something is missing in your life? Which you can't find.. or, dream about being close to.. And when you feel that less worthy.. Is it then a cheap way out, to call it of, and take a slowride, to a better place?

My weakness is, that when I need help, someone close to me, or someone to talk to, I just never get to ask.. Because I'm afraid of dissapointment.